In the past two weeks, I have had the opportunity to reflect on the happenings of 2014, my objectives going into it, and how much progress I made towards achieving them. I started 2014 with this post, talking very abstractly of the straw man around which I wanted all my action in the year to build off of. I did not hit high notes on all the points I wanted to, but I learned a lot during the year, and I grew. I became more.
The biggest lesson I learned is that I am responsible for the energy I bring. When one gets abstract like that, it leaves the mind to determine a literal meaning, and then create some context based on our personal experiences in life so far. In my context, energy refers to disposition. It refers to the lens through which I process the things that happen in the world around me, and the impact I allow them to have on me. I have lived most of my life knowing that I had to do certain things to achieve certain results, and there was an esoteric element; luck, God, or whatever you believe in – that had to be on your side for things to turn out in a desirable outcome. Genius or naïve, it is what my legend in life has been.
Esoteric as we may call it, positive and negative are dimensions created by us to understand and process the things that happen in the world around us. Every action, reaction or emotion is a type of energy we bring, positive or negative, depending on how we rationalize. The crux is the value construct out of which we generate the energy that we put out in the world from.
We decide who we want to be, what we want to be remembered for, and why our presence in the world should matter in this moment and in the future. We call those our values. As interesting as it sounds, those are all decisions that have to be made. Then, we bring the energy congruent to that person we have decided to be. Success hardly ever comes by accident, in the instances that it does, someone somewhere was setting the stage for it. We typically fight the fights that needs to be fought, work hard to do the things we never thought we could, get mentors who have been on our path in the past and ask for help, all in the process of exercising the audacity to be who we have chosen to be.
Finally, and most importantly, I learned that the universe and all its working elements can be likened to our physical bodies. A large organism that consists of various organs, and cells working within the organs, playing different roles to enable the entire body survive. The cells carry messages across the body, utilizing energy based on the things we are consuming. Sometimes, cells get infected by the things we consume and do not play right in the best interest of the whole body. If the body is strong enough, it destroys and gets rid of the infected cells so that the healthy cells can continue working optimally. If the body is not strong enough, we take some pills to aid the process of ‘fixing’ or restoring balance to the body.
This is the same with us as cells within this large scale organism we call the universe. We play various roles to enable the whole universe survive in the right balance. In as much as we need to choose the role we want to play and play it to the best of our abilities, we should also know in the process of choosing, that life is only fulfilling when the role we play serves the entire organism. When we put out good energy, we not only do good for others, but we also do good for ourselves as well – because we all exist in this organism together. When we do not live true to ourselves and in the interest of the whole, we bring the type of energy infected cells bring in your body when you do not feel good.
You cannot cut off your right thumb with your left hand and laugh hysterically because your right thumb is not your left hand. You are one whole you, and both the right thumb and the left hand are part of the one integral whole. Realistically, the left hand hurts more because it lives to deal with the pain it caused.
In some circles, it is called living a purpose driven life, some other people say we should just do the right thing. Out of this idea as well, comes the innate desire and inspiration to give to charity. Improving the lot of the accessible in order to improve the lot of the whole. You exist ‘with’ us, not ‘to’ us.
You are a force in the universe, and you own the energy you bring to impact it however you choose to. Choose your role, make it valuable to the world around you. Exercise your audacity to be you, and own the energy you bring. Let it matter, and let it improve the lot of the whole that co-exists in the world with you.